I understand how you feel. It was the worst day of my life when I was told I had lung cancer. It will take a month to evaluate a biopsy. Since it is January, I suspect you have asked many questions by now. As you have thoughts, write down the subject on paper or computer. I take the paper with me to my next appointment, and jot down the information from the Doctor. The internet can help you understand terms. Broswing the internet can also be very scary, it has a lot of misinformation. Anything you read on the internet, run by your doctors. I hope this helps.